Waking up

Sometimes I just need time to get awake in the morning. I don't want anyone to talk to me. I am grumpy. I need to "get awake" before I can take on the day. Does this make any sense? I hope so. I hope it does not mean that there is something wrong with me. I am not like this every day. Some days everything is right with the world when I awaken. Of course, sometimes that just means that the news is on and some terrible horrible thing has happened, again. It seems like the news is never good anymore. So many horrible ways to die. So many people get gone. Car accidents, murders, fires, tornadoes. I could go on and on. I did not mean to get morose. I will "snap" out of it now. lol

Another reason I don't like to hear the news is that a certain "new" President is doing some OTHER news worthy thing. I try and try to avoid his news, for sure. It is such a joke and the entire world is laughing at the U.S. right now. It is so scary as I knew it would be. He is picking rich white men. Period. They are investigating his connection to the Russians. They know now that they hacked into Democratic headquarters. What this means I am not sure. It means that he is still a crook. He also has been denying things that there is taped evidence that he has said or done. He has turned over his business connections to his children to avoid conflict of interest. Ummm, sure.

Next topic, don't want to get even more depressed. I am a little bit afraid to say anything about the new guy because it could be a bad no no. But then that man just likes to read stuff about himself, he does not care if it is good or bad as long as he is front page news. Ego, yuck.

Christmas is just around the corner. We don't have anything planned as of yet. Our trip to Emmetsburg had to be postponed until after the new year. Just too much going on and the weather is supposed to get really bad by tonight. anywhere from 2 to 6 inches of snow up by George. We just don't do bad weather anymore. No more adventure left in us, I guess. lol. George just got a new job, so he has a lot of stuff to think about. After 15 years at that company, he has had enough. I did not even think to ask him which company he will be working for now. It is the company that his old boss went to back then. It has to be pretty scary to be changing jobs at his age, but I know it is about time.
He has taken a lot of crap and done a lot of things they don't appreciate for way too long. When Dad was ill, he was afraid to take too much time off. It was like he was working for Hitler. He said his Secretary would get all over his hours, etc. I could not believe it! He is the supervisor, manager! His boss is a real jerk, too. Talk about not appreciating a worker. George is the one running on a dead run to make the customers happy. He literally bends over backwards to please everyone. Takes short noon hours, etc. Works late at night and weekends. The new job is in Estherville! How is that for a hoot? Dad is gone and now George will be going up there every day. Funny how life works sometimes. I think Dad's dying may have something to do with his finally getting out. Life is too short! Betty does not like her job very much either, so she may be looking for something up there too. Heck, maybe they will move and tell E'burg where they can put it. That would justice! Main street there is dying off anyway. So many businesses are closing. Second hand stores is pretty much all there is there now. I couldn't believe there are 4 just on the main street. 3 on the main corner and one a bit south next to the Pizza Ranch. I know one of the guys who owns one of them. I thought he was the one on the north east corner, but now I am wondering if he might be the one on the south east side. Just thinking about the type of things for sale. I never asked him about his having a wife, so it is probably possible that it was his wife I saw when I used to go to the one place. I don't think so, however. Don't ask me why, just a feeling. Either way it is not important. I have not talked to him much the last couple of times because I have not been in a chatty mood. Sometimes I am and sometimes I am not. We are getting burned out on even going to the Hillbilly Sale. We did not go to the December one because the weather was going to get bad. Turned out it was not all that bad, but we don't regret not going because it is always the same old things. There were a few new vendors last month, but we still did not buy much. I got something, but cannot even remember what it was. With all the clutter we have been moving out, I am glad we did not go. I don't need to buy any more stuff to get rid of down the line. I am in the process of reading old letters to decide which ones can be let go. The clutter managing guy says that if it does not bring back good memories, it should go. Well some of the letters from Mom still stir up bad feelings and I am not sure why I let them do so. The way she could word things STILL gets me worked up reading them now. I did not realize how desperately she wanted to see us. How lonesome she was. But, I had to do what was best for me and the girls. Seeing me get so worked up was not worth it. There was always, all ways something said that hurt or I took wrong and it hurt. Dad retired and he went back to work after a short time. He could not take staying home either. Larry still has to go someplace almost every day. It drives me crazy, but I go along because he wants to go. I had such a wonderful time yesterday out in my shed. I did not do much but try to stay warm, but it was so nice being in a quiet place and getting some reading done without interruption. Phew.

Next topic. Last night I was so tired from trying to stay warm all day that my body ached most of the evening. I don't know what I would do without that recliner. It lets every muscle rest as much as it needs to rest to feel better. The Netflix shows we watched were crap, but I played a game I like, so it was okay to just let the mind go numb. We don't converse much because it ends up him being right and me being wrong or we argue about something. I have decided he HAS to be right for some reason. So I let him be right. It goes easier that way. Yesterday I also did a lot of stuff on this computer. I changed the lock screens several time before I got them to where I wanted them. One way I had it was not working because one screen did the right thing, but the other one did nothing. I fiddled around until I got it fixed. I have been getting calls about a free computer checkup since I bought this new computer. I think it is a hoax, but cannot prove it. I am not letting anyone see my inside of this computer unless something goes wrong with it. I am lucky because the other day when they tried, I was having trouble with it and they could not access it. Or I should say, I would not take the time needed to let them in to look. It could be legit, but something told me it wasn't. So yesterday I told the guy who called no thanks. He seemed surprised but did not try twice. Another clue, me thinks. I also watched some videos on you tube about Art Journaling. I am getting more confident that my way is as good or better than some of the ones I have been watching. I am getting some ideas to try as well.

Just talked to Larry and going to the shed is out of the question because of the cold today. I was just getting to the place where I could be getting something accomplished. Now that will die down. I just cannot seem to be creative more than one or two days in a row at the most. I will just have to do stuff in the house, probably writing. I can do writing on the computer or in a book. That will do it for now, I may come back later to work on poetry. Taa